Yesterday, I woke up in a foul mood. I slept through my alarms and was woke up by the two year old picking at me. I tried desperately to have a quiet time with the Lord before everyone was awake but it was interrupted multiple times with whines of boredom. Finally, everyone was awake and the chaos of our everyday life had begun and I was in an even worse place with my bad mood. I spewed it all over my family, “yelling get dressed, yapping settle down, be quiet!” I was the Hot Mess Express and I was railroading my kids. It wasn’t even breakfast time and I was failing with flying colors at being a patient and gentle mom.
It was right then, I knew I could not walk down the stairs until my heart was changed. I sat at the top praying,”Lord please redeem this day! Redeem me! Lord, bring to mind your word to hold on to because I just don’t have it today!” As he always is, He faithfully brought to mind James 1:2-4
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
I took a deep breath and I surrendered myself to him. I put to death the feelings of frustration and impatience. I surrendered my day and walked with assurance that each trial was for my good and was purposeful.
The rest of the day was rough. I had multiple battles with the kids but we also had some really precious moments. I didn’t get to do all I wanted that day but I did what the Lord wanted me to do. I rested in the Lord yesterday and was strengthened to live past my weakness because He was living through me.
I was redeemed! My day was redeemed! Oh thank the Lord for his power to redeem! He brought me back from the edge of crazy and blessed my day! Thank him for his renewed mercies!
Take heart my friend, He can redeem you right where you are!